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My heart cries out concerning the injustice of it all. And yet, I feel so utterly helpless. What can I do? It is the governments that make the decisions whether to intervene or not. So my reaction goes from heartache over injustice to feelings of helplessness and despair to emotional apathy. I don’t believe I can make a difference, so why bother? Maybe that is a selfish reaction in itself and I don’t like it, but I’m being honest.
It’s in moments like these that I really long for Jesus to come back and make everything right, because I honestly don’t think fallen man will be able to correct the injustices in this world. We are too selfish, too sinful. The evil in this world will continue. How can we stand against it? What can we do?
And yet, as individuals and countries, we can respond swiftly to a natural disaster such as the tsunami in Asia however we ignore other catastrophes in the world that are taking even more lives.
A similar situation to Rwanda is happening in Darfur, Sudan. Even though I feel largely powerless, I will not give up hope. Perhaps if enough people start talking and believing they can make a difference, maybe something can be done. Here are some links regarding the Darfur crisis:
CBC’s Correspondent in Darfur
Sudan: A Nation Divided
Sudan’s Darfur Conflict
Unlike its response in Asia, the West has stood idly by while genocide, disease & famine ravage Africa
Philippians 2:4 - “Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.”
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January 28th, 2005 by Carol
I am a ‘happy ending girl’. Whatever I watch, whatever I read - must have a happy ending. I love fairy tales; someone ’saves the day’ and they live happily ever after. Absolutely NO killing off any of the main characters. For example, even though I can acknowledge that “The Titanic” was a well-made movie, I was completely ticked off at the end when they killed off Leonardo diCaprio’s character - they were supposed to survive, get married and live happily ever after. I don’t care that Kate Winslett’s character led a full life because of what she had experienced - not happy ending in my books! Some may think this is a silly sentiment, but I don’t care. I will continue to live in my idealistic bubble (when it comes to movies and books, anyways) and always hope for the best. Anyways, there’s a bit about me. 
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January 25th, 2005 by Carol
I read this today (see ‘God?’ on Monday, January 24, 2005) and it broke my heart. Memories of when I had to tell my oldest son (he was 5 at the time) that his father had died came back to me. I also know how extremely sensitive my son is about death and how fearful he is of people dying and leaving him. I cannot imagine what this little boy is going through. Please pray.
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January 24th, 2005 by Carol
Philippians 3:10 - “I want to know Christ and the power of his resurrection and the fellowship of sharing in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death,”
Sometimes, it is in suffering that we can better understand God’s heart. How can we understand His heartache if we do not go through heartache ourselves? When we are in those moments of emotional agony, do we catch a glimpse of the agony of the Father as He looks on this fallen world? Is that what Paul means when he talks about ‘the fellowship of sharing in his sufferings’? Can we identify more closely with Jesus having gone through painful experiences? Is that the point of it all?
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January 22nd, 2005 by Carol
“Solitude greeting solitude, that’s what community is all about. Community is not the place where we are no longer alone but the place where we respect, protect, and reverently greet one another’s aloneness. When we allow our aloneness to lead us into solitude, our solitude will enable us to rejoice in the solitude of others. Our solitude roots us in our own hearts. Instead of making us yearn for company that will offer us immediate satisfaction, solitude makes us claim our center and empowers us to call others to claim theirs. Our various solitudes are like strong, straight pillars that hold up the roof of our communal house. Thus, solitude always strengthens community.” - Henri Nouwen
This idea of community is very different that what my perception has been. There’s a part of me that hates to be alone. I love to be with people because then I don’t have to be by myself. But this can lead to trying to find my fulfillment in people and not looking to my source - God. And I see people in my community that seem to be a constant ‘drain’ on people and it is precisely because they are trying to have their needs met by people and not by God. I don’t want to be like that. I want to learn how to allow my aloneness to lead me into solitude, so that my strength is found in Him.
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January 19th, 2005 by Carol
I just finished watching ‘Cast Away’ (with Tom Hanks) for the first time. A great movie. The hardest part for me to watch was the part at the end - when Tom Hanks’ character, Chuck Noland, comes back to Memphis to see the woman (played by Helen Hunt) he had pledged to marry over 4 years earlier. He finds out that in the meantime she has married, has a daughter, has a different life. What broke my heart was that this woman still loved Chuck, but she had to let him go…again, and return to her life.
This was a little too surreal for me. I could identify too closely with Helen Hunt’s character. It brought out feelings and emotions I didn’t know were there. Feelings that somehow I have betrayed my husband, that I’ve abandoned him. I loved him. And when we were married, I could never understand how people could remarry after their spouse died; I saw it as a betrayal. But I’m a different person now. When my husband passed away, that ‘noble’ thought of staying loyal to him by never pursuing remarriage went right out the window. If my husband came back today, would I still love him? Of course I would. But I love another man now. How can a woman love two men? How can I love one without betraying the other?
I realize this doesn’t make a lot of sense, but that’s grieving for you. Even though I know, logically speaking, I have not abandoned or betrayed my husband, there must be something deep down inside that believes that, or I wouldn’t have had the reaction I did when watching this movie. Maybe there’s a part I need to ‘let go’ so I can carry on with my life.
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January 18th, 2005 by Carol
I read this article today (sorry if you can’t read it - National Post subscribers only). It discusses the religious right and politics in the U.S.. The religious right believe they are largely responsible for the re-election of President Bush and they plan on pushing their agenda via the government. I found this disturbing. It made me think of the disciples and Jesus. The disciples believed Jesus was going to establish a physical kingdom and they wanted to rule alongside Him. They didn’t get it. The kingdom Jesus brought was a kingdom established in the hearts of people, not something physically enforced. The ‘agenda’ of the religious right smells too much of a physical ‘kingdom’, enforcing morality on people through government policy. But this will not change the human heart. And isn’t that what’s most important?
I have to admit, though, that I really do not understand the religious right in the United States. It is so different from anything we see in Canada. I would be interested in learning more about its origin and history.
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January 16th, 2005 by Carol
Joshua 1:9 - “I command you - be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
What does it mean to be ’strong and courageous’ today? I realize this passage was referring to a specific point in the history of Israel, but there are references in the New Testament to ‘boldness’, ‘confidence’, etc. What does this look like? Do I see this in people very often? Have so many of us been ‘burned’ by past experiences and are constantly questioning whether we are ‘right’ or know the ‘truth’ or are actually following God’s will that we do not possess confidence and boldness in our walk of faith?
How does a person become strong in the Lord?
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January 14th, 2005 by Carol
I don’t think it really matters how cold it is. -40, -52, it feels the same to me. I think after a certain point my body just registers ‘cold!’.
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January 11th, 2005 by Carol
Apparently, one of my co-workers said this while I was out of the office today:
“The tsunami in South-East Asia was God’s way of de-populating an area that was overpopulated.”
Wow. Someone actually thinks this. What do you think?
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