{"id":120,"date":"2005-08-30T23:07:00","date_gmt":"2005-08-31T05:07:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/?p=121"},"modified":"2005-08-30T23:07:00","modified_gmt":"2005-08-31T05:07:00","slug":"id-rather-be-broken","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/?p=120","title":{"rendered":"I&#8217;d rather be broken"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Everyone has issues &#8211; issues with trust, issues with fear, issues with being vulnerable, the list goes on.  I have issues.  I have pride.  I want to be &#8216;right&#8217;.  I don&#8217;t like to lose.  Some people seem to stay &#8216;stuck&#8217; in their issues and are never able to move past them.  I&#8217;m talking about believers in Christ, not unbelievers.  What keeps people &#8216;stuck&#8217; where they are?  Why do I seem to stay &#8216;stuck&#8217;?  I get so frustrated when this happens.  I&#8217;d rather be able to just deal with something and then move on (did I mention I have issues with being patient?).  It is for freedom that Christ has set us free.  Why don&#8217;t I see more of that?<\/p>\n<p>I think one of the factors involved is how people handle their issues.  Do I muster up all my defenses or do I allow myself to be broken?  Being broken isn&#8217;t fun.  I&#8217;ve been there.  Being broken means I might have to humble myself to other people, maybe people I&#8217;m not even sure care about me.  I might have to admit that I&#8217;m wrong or at least honestly see the other side of the story.  My natural tendancy is to fight rather than be humbled.  But I know that true life, the abundant life that Jesus talked about, only comes through brokenness.  Because out of brokenness comes freedom.  I&#8217;ve been feeling a growing frustration lately because I desire to be used by God to touch people&#8217;s lives, and yet I don&#8217;t feel like that&#8217;s happening at all.  I wonder tonight whether it&#8217;s because I&#8217;m not broken; I&#8217;m too proud.  My heart cries out to be in a place where my only source is God my Savior.  Take me there, God.  When it comes down to it, I&#8217;d rather be broken.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Everyone has issues &#8211; issues with trust, issues with fear, issues with being vulnerable, the list goes on. I have issues. I have pride. I [&hellip;] <span class=\"read-more-link\"><a class=\"read-more\" href=\"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/?p=120\">Read More<\/a><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/120"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=120"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/120\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=120"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=120"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=120"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}