I saw my doctor this evening and things have not progressed since this morning.\u00c2\u00a0 I’m still 3 cm dilated.\u00c2\u00a0 And now my contractions have stopped.\u00c2\u00a0 I am completely discouraged.\u00c2\u00a0 All these friends and relatives are anxiously awaiting this newborn (for some its the first biological grandchild) and my body doesn’t seem to want to work.\u00c2\u00a0 I feel frustrated and depressed. And\u00c2\u00a0I feel pressure to hurry up and have this thing – I know people mean well, but it’s not making me feel very good at this point.\u00c2\u00a0 I can’t do anything about what’s going on and I, too, would like to have this baby hurry up and be born.<\/p>\n
I had dreams of going into labour naturally.\u00c2\u00a0 I would start having contractions and they would gradually and steadily progress until it was time to go to the hospital and then a few hours later, I would be holding a baby in my arms.\u00c2\u00a0 But that’s not how its happening.\u00c2\u00a0 I almost wonder if it was better not having any contractions and then being induced.\u00c2\u00a0 Sure I had to stay in the hospital the whole time and the whole process was more intense, but at least I could tell people we’re going in to be induced on this day and with my kids it was 8-12 hours later, we had a baby.\u00c2\u00a0 None of this dragging it out to eternity with all these people anxiously waiting to hear the baby has been born (and ending up waiting for days).<\/p>\n
I know I’m pregnant and that means emotional and irrational, so things aren’t probably as bad as they seem,\u00c2\u00a0but its how I’m feeling at this moment in time.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I saw my doctor this evening and things have not progressed since this morning.\u00c2\u00a0 I’m still 3 cm dilated.\u00c2\u00a0 And now my contractions have stopped.\u00c2\u00a0 […] Read More<\/a><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/176"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=176"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/176\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=176"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=176"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=176"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}