{"id":7,"date":"2004-09-18T13:20:14","date_gmt":"2004-09-18T19:20:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/?p=8"},"modified":"2004-09-18T13:20:14","modified_gmt":"2004-09-18T19:20:14","slug":"what-is-my-worth","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/songofjoy.ca\/?p=7","title":{"rendered":"What is my worth?"},"content":{"rendered":"

I admit that I do not have a very high sense of my worth. And I don’t understand why. I can recognize that I was brought up in an environment that did not communicate a sense of worth to me. But that was years ago. I can read the Bible and understand mentally what it says, but it does not penetrate my heart. “How great is the love the Father has lavished<\/strong> on us, that we should be called children of God!” (1 John 3:1). “But I lavish<\/strong> my love on those who love me and obey my commands, even for a thousand generations.” (Deuteronomy 5:10). I looked up the word ‘lavish’: to extend or bestow with profusion (‘profusion’ means lavish expenditure, extravagance). It would seem I have great worth in God’s eyes.<\/p>\n

So why can’t I grasp this? What keeps me from knowing and understanding the truth? I desperately want to know and understand my worth, but something (and I don’t know what) keeps me from believing. I was chatting with a friend last night and we are both driven by a need to be perfect; we both have unrealistic expectations of ourselves. It’s like I think I have to earn God’s love and acceptance and I can’t understand that I already have it.<\/p>\n

Someone ‘lavished’ on me today. He thought I could use a pick-me-up. I was in awe because I do not believe I am worth being ‘lavished’ upon. Technically, I know that’s a lie, but I live as if it were true. God’s love is so much greater than what I received today. Why can’t I understand this? It’s frustating, but God is faithful. His desire is for me to be free of this lie. So someday, by His power, I will be free.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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