Been thinking about all sorts of things about the church and people lately. The perspectives I once had about ‘church’ are shifting. It’s kind of like changing out of some old clothes and trying to figure out what the new ones look like, how they fit, how they feel. I’m not sure how I fit into the whole scheme of things in God’s kingdom anymore. I once thought I was so strongly connected to my church family that nothing would be able to pull me away from it. But I was very much a ‘follower’ who did very little (if any) discerning or testing of what was being presented to me. (‘Presented to me….’ – I’ve got thoughts about the whole structure thing, too, but that will have to wait until another time.)<\/p>\n
But now I am testing and weighing things a lot more than I used to. I don’t always agree with what’s being said, with people’s points of view. My husband used to come home from church and be questioning all sorts of stuff and feeling quite frustrated and discouraged about the whole thing. And I used to be very uncomfortable with that (“don’t rock the boat”). Now I find myself f0llowing in his footsteps in some ways.<\/p>\n
I’m also part of a second community of faith and seeing some positive points in it, too. It’s not that I don’t love the people in my first church. I love them very much and that is perhaps why I’m finding this to be a bit of a difficult time right now. I think I’m finding my voice. But is my ‘voice’ in harmony with the rest of the choir? I don’t know. I feel so disconnected with my first church. I long for depth in those relationships but the church structure on Sunday mornings doesn’t really faciliate that. And we’re all busy with our lives. How can these relationships grow and develop? How can I stop the ‘drifting apart’ that I’m feeling?<\/p>\n
I’m rambling and probably not making a lot of sense. I don’t have all my thoughts sorted out in my mind. I guess that’s what this blogging space is here for – to sort things out sometimes.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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