As promised I’ve been trying to write one post a week about something in which I am thankful. \u00a0Today is a tuffy. \u00a0Last night was particularly rough with my oldest son and it didn’t leave me feeling very good (or thankful). \u00a0Today was busy with various activities and I haven’t had a chance to sit down and think about thankfulness…until right now.<\/p>\n
I could list a number of quick easy things that I am thankful for: heat, sight, colors, cameras, friends, a wonderful loving husband, etc. \u00a0But my goal was for a little more depth in my blog posts.<\/p>\n
Yesterday was the 9 year anniversary of my first husband, Mike Fisher’s, death. \u00a0A lot has changed in 9 years. \u00a0I have changed a lot in 9 years; the kids have changed a lot in 9 years. \u00a0I miss Mike. \u00a0I’d like him to see what kind of person I’ve become. \u00a0I think he would have a lot of fun with Matthew (his youngest son) and I think Matthew would really like his dad. \u00a0I’m not sure how he would react to David (his oldest son). \u00a0He might be saddened by how difficult life has been for David. \u00a0But then again he might have some words of insight, acceptance, love (coming from the other side of the grave) to offer for David. \u00a0I’m sure he would tell him that he loves him very much.<\/p>\n
The last 9 years have been an amazing journey and I am a better person for it. \u00a0I have a deeper faith in God. \u00a0I’ve learned so much more about grace and bit by bit I am giving myself permission to accept God’s grace (versus my own perfectionism).<\/p>\n
So…yep… that’s what I’m thankful for today: the journey. \u00a0I used to squirm whenever I heard talk about the importance of “the journey” more than the destination. \u00a0I just wanted to get where I needed to get to…NOW! \u00a0I didn’t want to have to suffer through “the journey”. \u00a0The journey was not always pleasant and I wanted to skip past the unpleasantness and arrive<\/span>. \u00a0But now I see that it is in “the journey” that growth, maturity, transformation happens. \u00a0It is by walking those valleys of unpleasantness that my relationship with God deepens. \u00a0My faith is strengthened and I am tossed less and less by the wind and the waves of my circumstances.<\/p>\n My journey has not been easy but the rewards have outweighed the adversity. \u00a0And so I am thankful. \u00a0Thankful that God saw fit to take me on this journey so I could experience His love and grace in amazing ways.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"