I’m here to say, “I’m sorry.”
I realize when I posted my “If I stopped coming to church…” entry, it hurt some people. I know that there are people who read my blog who go to this church and I was being insensitive to them. I’m sorry.
I can’t say my intentions were entirely noble. I was feeling sorry for myself, among other things. I think I was wanting to be able to connect with some of my close friendships in this church, feeling like that wasn’t happening, and in my frustration and the other emotions I was experiencing, start to wonder if anyone cared or would miss me. I think inside I was screaming, “Hey, I miss you! Don’t you miss me?”
But, I realize I was being very insensitive. And I am very sorry. I really do care about you. And I really miss you. So much has changed and is changing in my life. I want to be able to share my heart with you, and I want to hear your heart.
Worship Warrior, thanks for being couragious and blogging your thoughts. They are not unheard and they are not in vain. The truth is that the structure of the church is ailing. We only face front (or actually the back of someone’s head) and only a few people get to do anything.
Me being an outsider I have no dog in this blog-fight but I’d say that though you may have been feeling hurt by the lack of interaction of your friends, I’d still say you are quite justified in your feelings.
I think your blog spot shows you are seeking a deeper community that goes beyond the surface.
Be encouraged. Keep being brave.
Jason @ August Burning
Jason, you need to know that this is a pretty deep community and that those of us commenting go down pretty far. Unfortunately as she said, we’ve all been a little disconnected because of our own home issues that haven’t let us focus on each other much. For posterity sake we’ve all had some pretty good face to face stuff in the real world and are okay with one another, probably due to all this blogging stuff 🙂