I’m feeling out of sorts right now. Misunderstandings, mind games, breakdown in communication – it all bugs me. I hate it when it happens. I spend my time trying to figure out why I reacted the way I did or why the other person reacted the way they did – sometimes (perhaps most times) I overanalyse way too much. I want to learn from my experiences, but there is also this side of me that wants to put up walls in an attempt to protect myself. I hate that side of me. I don’t want to go there. Human nature sucks sometimes! When can I be free of this sinful nature that tries to save itself when the only way I can be saved is for that nature to die?
I’m too inward focused right now. Gotta get back to God. Why is it so hard sometimes? I love Him, but I’ve lost my way. Why do I feel like I am drowning in all the responsibilities of this life? Where is the simple love and delight in His presence?
“Consider it pure joy my (sister) when you face trials of many kinds, because we know that the testing of our faith develops perseverence, and perseverence must finish it’s work so that you may be mature and complete not lacking anything”
This too shall pass, God will not leave you where He has brought you. Bless you and may He continue to pour out His spirit on you in this deserty time.
I totally hear you! It’s the “trust in what you know” phase….not the funest stage either! But I always find more growth in those places than in the joy and delight places. You are wise when you say that you are “inward focused” It is so true that fixing our eyes solves 99% of the stress. God is guiding you through this crazy busy time. Lani was the one that really modelled for me how to rest in the midst of “go go go” I am praying for you and love you!
Thanks for the encouraging words. You two are awesome! I’m very glad you’re my friends.
Hope its all going okay….