I heard the lyrics for this song today. It describes a lot of where I am right now. ‘Break Away’ Grew up in a small town, And when the rain would fall down, I’d just stare out my window. Dreaming of what could be, And if I’d end up happy, I would pray. Try hard to reach out, But when I tried to speak out, Felt like no-one could hear […] Read More
I’ve been discovering some things about myself lately. How much I protect myself from others, and put up walls to keep others out (and keep ‘me’ in). I’m realizing how I have not allowed myself to get to know the true me (if that makes any sense). It’s like I’ve lived my life perceiving what others ‘expect’ of me and trying to live up to those expectations. So in the […] Read More
Yesterday, I practiced some solitude. A friend let me use his cabin and I headed off to the lake. What a beautiful day! I absolutely LOVE being in nature. I grew up on a farm and would always be tramping around the pasture or down at the creek. The reason I went for some solitude was really to have a serious talk with God. My life has felt like its […] Read More
This past year has not been an easy road for me. And it doesn’t appear to be getting any easier. I know God is using this time to root out some deep stuff in me that needs to go as He continues to shape my character. He’s beginning to remind me of the dreams I once dreamed, what seemed a long, long time ago. The dreams I dreamed when I […] Read More
It’s been a few days since I posted anything, so I thought I might just ramble for a while. I hate being frustrated. I hate trying and seeming to get nowhere. I’m tired of trying to do ‘all the right things’. I’m tired of trying to figure out my place in this world. I’m tired of trying to be what I’m supposed to be. I WANT TO BE ME! But […] Read More
I had another little ‘flash’ yesterday as I was driving home with my two boys. My oldest categorizes the world into people who believe in God and people who don’t believe in God. So he was talking about something bad that some people did and he said, “Those people don’t believe in God!” My youngest, hearing the conversation, tried to re-iterate what his older brother was saying, but he missed […] Read More
I received a flyer from a local Christian bookstore today with their Christmas catalogue. I was amazed at all the different kinds of books people can purchase. Many of them were ‘how to’ books on something or other: marriage, dating, parenting, being disappointed with God, dealing with grief… The list goes on. I found myself reading the titles and brief write-ups and thinking, “I could relate to this; that might […] Read More
Hebrews 11:1, 2 – “What is faith? It is the confident assurance that what we hope for is going to happen. It is the evidence of things we cannot see. God gave his approval to people in days of old because of their faith.” So what does this mean? What does faith ‘look’ like? You cannnot measure or study ‘faith’ in any tangible kind of way. Yet, it exists, and […] Read More
A friend of mine has been posting about the Purpose Driven Life this week. He is concerned with the commercialization of Christianity, but also with the fact that people are content with the ‘fads’ that run through the North American church without wanting something deeper. It has been interesting to see how people have responded to his comments. There is a contigent that says ‘if it works and seems to […] Read More
Sometimes people receive unexpected moments of insight while going about our daily lives, the ‘flash’ as Lani calls it. I experienced one of those today. I was sitting in church this morning and my 4 year old was not cooperating with the sitting still and being quiet part. After asking him to sit down and be quiet a few times with little response, I picked him up and sat him […] Read More